So I know this is depressing much like many things I discuss but there was something that really appealed to me in this. Maybe because it seems like the author was still fighting despite of the opposition.
There was no author nor a title.
This darkness inside has taken over. This darkness inside has eaten away my spirit. This darkness inside has triumphed over me. This darkness...This Darkness... THIS DARKNESS.
I used to have spunk. I used to have vitality. I used to be free. I used to have light. I used to... I Used To... I USED TO....
I fell in love before and felt alive. I fell in love before and loved falling. I fell in love before and crashed at the bottom. I fell...I Fell...I FELL....
I broke someones heart trying to get free. I broke someones heart trying to save me. I broke someones heart and its killing me. I broke...I Broke...I BROKE....
I am broken beyond repair. I am broken from the one I used to be. I am broken because of me. I am broken...I Am Broken... I AM BROKEN...
I do not cry because the tears burn. I do not cry it changes nothing. I do not cry because only darkness comforts me. I do not...I Do Not... I DO NOT....
I am here alive but not living. I am here alive with no feeling. I am here alive with all this darkness. I am alive with a washed out purpose. I am here alive but living as a ghost. I am here...I Am Here... I AM HERE...
Just let me go be alone. Just let me go and be hollow instead. Just let me go on. Just let me go, get out of me! Let me go...Let Me Go...LET ME GO...
Darkness.
Wednesday, October 27, 2010
Thursday, October 14, 2010
Bitter Fruit Falling by Khalilullah Khalili
I am the bitter fruit falling upon the earth.
Thus in the clutches of time I remain.
O spring of liberty!
Your grace, what else it could beBut to render this bitter fruit sweet?
The greatest wealth of this world is the company of friends,
The agony of death:
Separation from them,
But since they are all together, the friends,
Resting deep in the heart of the dust,
What difference does it make
Whether alive or dead.
Out of pain and sorrow destiny has molded me.
What, Alas, has been my joy from the cup of life?
Like a candle burning in the blowing wind,
I tremble, I burn, ... I die.
I just really thought this a awesome peice. It really made me think about the day to day lives of the Afghani people and the violence and terror they have lived through.
Thus in the clutches of time I remain.
O spring of liberty!
Your grace, what else it could beBut to render this bitter fruit sweet?
The greatest wealth of this world is the company of friends,
The agony of death:
Separation from them,
But since they are all together, the friends,
Resting deep in the heart of the dust,
What difference does it make
Whether alive or dead.
Out of pain and sorrow destiny has molded me.
What, Alas, has been my joy from the cup of life?
Like a candle burning in the blowing wind,
I tremble, I burn, ... I die.
I just really thought this a awesome peice. It really made me think about the day to day lives of the Afghani people and the violence and terror they have lived through.
Thursday, October 7, 2010
Life and Smoking Bans
Today I saw one of the most badass things. I saw a man smoking a ciggerette while he was at a gas pump. I know what you may be thinking. What was he thinking? Was he trying to blow up the gas station? And ofcourse your wondering how I could possibly think that something so dangerous could ever be constructed as cool. Well... society in itself needs to reevaluate what it considers "dangerous".
Everyone today is concerned about things they construe as risky and dangerous behavior without realizing that by emphasizing these behaviors in usually results in rebellion and escalates from there. Take smoking for example. Up until recent years smoking was allowed in public places such as resturants, bars, and airports. Now everyone is so concerned about getting cancer that in many places you have to be 50 feet away from the building. WTF? My parents smoked in our house most of my chilhood and teenage years and I turned out healthy as did many of my friends. Now society says its illegal to smoke in bar or even in front of a bar that only allows adults to enter? Lets face the one universal truth... When its time to leave this world it doesnt matter if we smoked or if we were around 2nd hand smoke. When your numbers up your going regardless of what kind of abuse you put on your body.
Society enforces these rules because by doing so we feel as if we are the ones controlling life and death. That implementing a no smoking ban or whatever law you choose will bring us more control over a choatic world. Reality check. There are far more life threatening matters out there to worry about whose lighting up. Yet its these major issues such as the conflict in Afghanistan, the drug war in Mexico that is leaking over into our boarders, and third world countries having nuclear capabilties that the average American could care less about. I see their reasoning as to why they prefer ignorance. One indidviual cannot control world events but avoiding cancer is something realstic and possible to avoid. Sadly many non smokers contract cancer too. And if each individual citzen in America took more of an interest in world events than maybe society as whole would appericiate the country we live in. As an added bonus America would look less like hypocrites to the rest of the world.
So enojoy life because no matter how many smoking bans America implements, we still have no control over how long we have to enjoy life.
Everyone today is concerned about things they construe as risky and dangerous behavior without realizing that by emphasizing these behaviors in usually results in rebellion and escalates from there. Take smoking for example. Up until recent years smoking was allowed in public places such as resturants, bars, and airports. Now everyone is so concerned about getting cancer that in many places you have to be 50 feet away from the building. WTF? My parents smoked in our house most of my chilhood and teenage years and I turned out healthy as did many of my friends. Now society says its illegal to smoke in bar or even in front of a bar that only allows adults to enter? Lets face the one universal truth... When its time to leave this world it doesnt matter if we smoked or if we were around 2nd hand smoke. When your numbers up your going regardless of what kind of abuse you put on your body.
Society enforces these rules because by doing so we feel as if we are the ones controlling life and death. That implementing a no smoking ban or whatever law you choose will bring us more control over a choatic world. Reality check. There are far more life threatening matters out there to worry about whose lighting up. Yet its these major issues such as the conflict in Afghanistan, the drug war in Mexico that is leaking over into our boarders, and third world countries having nuclear capabilties that the average American could care less about. I see their reasoning as to why they prefer ignorance. One indidviual cannot control world events but avoiding cancer is something realstic and possible to avoid. Sadly many non smokers contract cancer too. And if each individual citzen in America took more of an interest in world events than maybe society as whole would appericiate the country we live in. As an added bonus America would look less like hypocrites to the rest of the world.
So enojoy life because no matter how many smoking bans America implements, we still have no control over how long we have to enjoy life.
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